At some point in our lives as fat people, we all feel a certain depth of desperation and rejection. The desperation stems from the rejection of a thin-obsessed society. But let’s face it, thin IS in, and it’s just healthier for our bodies. They perform better with less weight on them. The degree of thinness should not however determine how we are treated in life. Unfortunately though, it does. People can be very cruel to one another, and I find at times, people of size can be the cruelest of all. I’ve auditioned several times to be on the television show The Biggest Loser. I feel that it would really help me to get my weight off while at the same time being able to use my own personal story to help encourage those who are desperately struggling and super-super-morbidly obese and/or deal with disabilities. After a few years of some serious struggles (hurricane Ike was just as diffiult for people as katrina, but not as publicized), I have finally found my way back onto the right path and decided to once again try out for Biggest Loser. I joined Holland "Master Caster" Striplin's fanpage on facebook, and lo' and behold see it's still the same: people of size can be the cruelest and most judgemental of all. Perhaps it's because we all get it so much that we in turn do it to others and don't even realize it???? I don't know, but I do know I do my best to always do right by people. I feel it’s the way we are supposed to be in life, but it’s just a natural part of my character.
Following the path of least resistance can mean a lot of things, but in this case, I’m going to go with what it means as pertaining to weight loss. I’ve had 2 WLS in my life. As I’ve said before, a lot of people think this is the easy way out, but let me just say it is by far one of the hardest things to do in life. First, you have to deal with the pain of surgery. It’s agony! Second, you then have to deal with much smaller serving sizes. Easy, right? Uhm, NO! if you take one bite too much, you are in absolute agony, or if you don’t chew well enough, it won’t go through your lumen. What happens then? Most people will go stick their fingers down their throat and make themselves puke it up. The pain is that bad. It’s like you’ve been kicked in the chest by a linebacker and are sucking fumes at the same time. On top of all this, there is the psychological aspect of simply eating smaller amounts. Humans in general love food. We celebrate just about everything with food. We eat for comfort, we eat when we are happy, sad, angry, bored, and this does not go away just because your stomach is now the size of an egg, which takes you right back to number 2, PAIN if you overeat. Then there is the issue of if you never deal with what got you fat in the first place, you will still find a way to eat or eat the wrong things…what happens over a few years is you find yourself right back at the weight you started at before WLS, or bigger, but it’s much harder to lose it then!
In the end, the path of least resistance truly is finding a well-balanced, nutritionally solid meal plan and sticking with it. You WILL stick with it if you like it and feel sated. You also need to deal with the issues that got you fat to begin with. It’s painful sometimes but very cathartic. Forgive if you need to forgive, whether it’s others or yourself, and let go. That in and of itself is so incredibly healing! Once you’ve done that, commit to being good to yourself. Find that plan that is right for you and go for it! Most importantly, don't forget to Exercise! It’s like milk,
IT DOES A BODY GOOD! And most importantly BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!
Monday, April 26, 2010
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2 comments:
Carla you are sucha amazing person you are so inspirion you say thing that really makes one think of there life and where they are at ! i really enjoy reading your blogs they help me so much!!
thank you
Wendy, I'm really glad it helps you! It does me too in writing it, and I hope in the end, even if it's just one person, it helps!
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